Tuesday, November 17, 2009

Chillin' at home.

This is the most bizzare week of my life. I am not sick. I am not recovering from surgery. We are not on vacation. And yet, I am off work all week! For some reason I feel a little guilty about that...but I hope you don't think I am trying to rub this in your faces...because, let me tell you, I sincerely do feel guilty, and if I could have my normal voice back and NEVER have to take a week of vocal rest, I would.

Anyway, if you read my last post, you know that I saw a specialist last week who ordered a week of no teaching and instead VOCAL REST. So that's why I am home, not sick, and not recovering from surgery, but just home, not talking. Bizzare.

Sunday night was a treat - usually I am stressing and getting anxious about the week ahead - but not this past Sunday night. Just knowing I didn't have to go in to work on Monday made Sunday night that much easier. I watched The Proposal for the 3rd time, and I just love that movie. Makes me laugh out loud. Sandra Bullock and Ryan Reynolds are hilarious.

Yesterday I went for a walk around the neighborhood - again - felt SO weird to do that on a Monday....! I took a bubble bath while listening to Jeff Manion, then ate lunch and did laundry. Aaron picked me up in the afternoon and I took my small white board and Expo marker along so I could communicate. What a strange experience. It really makes me realize just how much I talk. Also makes me realize that my thoughts are not always the most important, nor do they always need to be voiced. It was actually quite refreshing to not be able to talk. Because I have to take the time to actually write a thought or comment, it forces me to think twice before speaking...er...expressing.

Aaron and I ran errands for awhile, he wants to get a laptop computer, and I am always game for a Best Buy run. Kind of like my sister, my eyes sort of glaze over when I step into a store like Best Buy. I immediately went to the newest Mac computer, and typed in all my favorite blogs. I smiled the entire time while looking at this blog. My nieces and nephew get cuter every stinkin' time I see pictures of them! I can't wait until December when we all get to be together! Later on Aaron and I went to the cheap theater ($3) and saw a great movie. The drive home was kind of quiet, because I couldn't see to actually write anything, and Aaron wouldn't have been able to see what I wrote anyway. WEIRD.

So, you are probably asking yourself, "What is God trying to teach Allison during this bizzare experience?" I am wondering that myself. I have a few ideas...

a) I have TWO ears and ONE mouth for a reason - my opinion does NOT always have to be shared, and stopping to think before speaking is extremely beneficial.

b) I talk too much. An obvious one, right? But seriously - I am realizing that I talk just to fill space! I do this with my roommates, collegues, Aaron, and others! Silence doesn't have to mean you are mad or lonely or sad. Two people can just be in each others' presence sometimes too!

c) Southern California in November is absolutely stunning. It is gorgeous. I cannot tell you how badly I have wanted this weather, and now that it's here, I can't get enough of it! Being able to go for a walk with no agenda for the day is priceless.

It's funny, because for about the past year of my life, I feel like I have been hit with some pretty major health issues that I never, ever thought I'd have to think about. I thought I was invincible. Many of my friends and family members have encouraged me to rest more, take time for Allison and things like that, but I didn't ever actually do any of it..until the doc said I had to! Ha! I look forward to what else God is going to teach me in the coming days of this week. That's it for now.

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